I have no idea why there is still so much hate in the 21st century. It seems to be in everything in society. As a child, I had not experienced hate.
Today, I fear that I can not trust anyone with discussions concerning spirituality, do to the desire to not feel ostracized.
I’m convinced by experience and perception that Christianity is at least in part responsible for that hate, and that I shouldn’t date Christians.
OK, I didn’t say that right: that I should date only those who practice sacred sexuality, or some other alternative spirituality.
You see, I have been seduced and turned out by the sexual energy I in my teens, and wanted to further explore this with a fitting spirituality.
But in all my life, there were only two people that came close to that spirituality,and neither were from my two failed marriages.
Now, at age 56, I’m continually forced to the logical conclusion that celibacy is the only option — an option I’ve ignored for two decades, because well, sex feels too bloody good!
But not doing so leaves me less enlightened, and unfulfilled.
Liferaft in the Abyss 