Hello. I’m remembering and sharing my earliest thoughts of suicidal tendency and attempt, in the hope that someone else can benefit from them. The earliest memory was of me taking twine and tying it to the closet pole to form a loose to hang myself — at the age of 8. I had refused toContinue reading “12.27.2020”
Category Archives: Personal Mysticism
I never knew….a poem
Detroit, where everyone was econocally free and the towers stood proud and free, Where people could work for themselves to express their passions,and such worries a silly sitcom. Racism didn’t exist and healthcare was free. HIV wasn’t heard of because it was cured inthe 70’s likePolio in the 50’s. I visited the moontwice: on businessContinue reading “I never knew….a poem”
….through divine eyes…., a poem.
So, which is it? The chicken or the egg? Before you can observe it, what is the state of a molecule? Goddess knows, (or if you want, God), She sits back and watches not the molecule but humans to see actions and reactions. I know not what She sees, I only knows She watches me,Continue reading “….through divine eyes…., a poem.”
Enemy?
At the age 12,I ws told by mybest friendthat I was theantichrist. This frightened me,!nd made me laugh. Frightened,that I was evil,and would go hell. But I laughed, I did several things. Me the antichrist? Shoot! I couldn’t evendefend myselfagainst the neighborhoodbullies the Heislers,who made me run. And my souland spirit my own…. ….free….
Beware of the food you eat….
I love old fashioned donuts, in a hate (love) relationship with cigarettes. I don’t eat three squares a day, nor Walk nearly enough. In arrogance, I’m the mightiest sorcerers and in humility so little I cannot see me from eye of the Milky Way, It’s sight so fine, seeing everything. But what I see disturbsContinue reading “Beware of the food you eat….”
Quality, poem
To die in bed at a hundred…. …is it better even though you really never lived? sleeping behind a bush in Balboa Park or behind a bush on University? Is having never fought a battle good? Pampered Princes talking Wall Street or suburbanites being cool not serving while waving the flag. ….is it better whenContinue reading “Quality, poem”
5th and Broadway
Made a light post my home, leaning against it in lingerie or fishnets, seein’ all yah folks go by intent on your business some smile and say hello some ask my rate. others with rudeness shun me, and ask me to repent. what I do, I would do for free, but how else would aContinue reading “5th and Broadway”
10.24.2020
So folks, anyone out there believes we live in a “artificial’ simulation”? Come, come, don’t be shy. We live in age where we can exchange ideas on a net work that spans the world and space itself. I mean, why not? I’m a YouTuber, meaning I watch a lot of interesting stuff concerning things likeContinue reading “10.24.2020”
Hollowed
In a room full of people yet you are alone. Can’t count your sex partners, though you’re alone. You share your city with hundreds of thousands, but share not your spirituality. How did I come into this world this way, this deserted island of existence? From: The Stone & Temple.
Awe
Awe… of raw being without thought,Intense energy of horrors and joy. Sometimes overwhelming. I imagined orgies and being gangbanded as ultimate experience, while experience told meI was a fool having traveled with far less numbers. It’s the essence, not the bounty of the fruit.
Liferaft in the Abyss 